REALLY????

As I flipped through pictures of my class and our recent gardening adventures I was unfortunate enough to come upon this. And all I could think of was---REALLY????? This is not what I see when I have on the appropriate undergarments, the figure flattering cuts of clothing and hold everything in just right-but this is what is really there-and that is SC-ARY!! I am so super frustrated with myself, with my lack of self-control and my overall attitude! Yick-that's all I can think. Not only have I not lost baby weight from 4 1/2 years ago-but now I've added to it and not added another baby. Yes, I've been busy-Yes, I've had numerous health issues-but holy canoli- at some point this has to be taken care of or my health is going to be even worse. Don't get me wrong-I've known for a while that I needed to get back on the band wagon! It seems something always shoves me off when I am doing well-ie-mass on liver-2 surgeries, etc. etc. I can't even believe I am putting this picture up-but maybe if I plaster it here for the world to see I'll be a little more motivated to make sure that there's less of me to see :)